invisible...

no i haven't forgotten that i have a blog, it's just that things, life and other pressing issues seem to have taken over the priority of blogging and well, despite my best attemps to pour my soul out to the both of you that read this, ok, maybe one of you, it just hasn't happened...



a lot has happened though, since the forementioned funeral and trip with my dad a lot has been going on with me...i was driving to jacksonville yesterday for my mom's birthday and i had this thought while listening to a Point of Grace song, don't remember which one but this thought just came to me and i've mulled it over before, even in a much earlier blog - anyway the thought is "why do some people just 'get it' when in comes to Christianity and the unconditional love and acceptance that comes from Christ and others just seem to halfheartedly bask in it's reality?"



while at lunch my friend made this comment about the sermon from that day - it was on Samson and how out of all the people in the Bible that came from miraculous births, that he was the only one that truly did not live up to his own potential due to his own double-mindedness. a light went off way back in my thoughts, i wonder if that is it, is that truly the key to 'getting it'? Is it our own double-mindedness that prevents us from that greater reality, and our own greater potential? I've struggled myself recently in what i "used to be" and what my life "should be at this point". Am i the reason that it's not what i deem it worth of being? am I my own enemy in this area? when it boils down to it have i chosen to be invisible because it's less painful, less challenging, less... i dare say i don't have an answer to that yet, but i do think it's part of the answer. as Christians we inherently have that same potential in us, we have all been given the same Spirit, and in that logic it is what we choose to do with what Christ has designed us for...why do we not choose to follow Him? why do we choose complacency, and to reside in self pity? why do we choose to glory in what 'we use to do or be' when He is calling us to a greater glory than we can ever find for ourselves?

more later...