well it's been a while since i've taken any time to sit down and write; things have been so different these last few months - i've been back here 8 months now and there are days when i think i'm truly going crazy and days where i rejoice knowing i am honoring my parents...
some days i wonder, how much longer...then i return to the thought of what must happen and what the family i must go through to get to the next step...
some days i wonder if this is all there will be for a long time....
i miss "my" life...my friends, my home, my work (who'd think i'd ever say that!)
things are really simple, somedays too simple...
i do read more, sleep less, work harder in the yard, in the house...and some days i work less...
i look forward to selling my house in GA and paying off some debt...
i spend a whole lot less...don't really "need" much either...
i look for opportunities to make some money but don't stress about bringing in the big bucks anymore...
a hectic day is too many diaper runs and the cable going out...well at least the cable part is a big deal to mom & dad, i like the peace and quiet personally...
never thought i would enjoy a trip to wal mart or the pharmacy, but it gives me some normalcy...
a treat is still starbucks, and sundays are still cherished as a day of rest and refreshing...
i still have the perfect house plan, not sure where it will be built...i think of the day when this is "all over" and what i will do, travel to nashville i'm sure, travel somewhere, maybe rent a RV and just go and go until i find that perfect place for the house...oh, and i'll sleep, all nite...
no one ever said how hard this would be...i like being skinny though, i've lost 26 pounds, think it's around 22 now though...that's still ok, i love being a size 4 or 6 and sometimes 8, it's all relative anyway...
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