regrets, resentment, and reality....

it's been a rough couple of weeks...and the three "r's" keep popping up in the scheme of things...regrets, resentment and reality...

first regrets, just one mainly, one of those "one that got away" moments and wondering years later how things would have been different today if i had only gone back and had a "do-over"....guess i will never know...

second, resentment...big one lately, each day i grow more and more resentful of my parents not having the foresight to plan ahead for their latter years and have the expectation of their children giving up their own lives to care for them...i hate it but it is what it is right now...

and finally reality...i'm hurting, really hurting and i just want the pain to go away...i just want someone to take 5 minutes to listen beyond the "yeah i'm good" look me in the eyes, see the pain, and just care, and to not be alone...